Why I cried during my workout and why it will probably happen again
As I mentioned in my previous post, I cried during my last workout. Not out of sadness. I was in a good mood. Happy to be there. Ready to get through the workout. But as I worked out, I just felt super emotional and started crying.
So I did a Google search and found this: https://experiencelife.com/article/laugh-cry-lift/
It's a rather long article. If you want the gist of it, basically, when we supress emotion during life, we end up storing it in our bodies.
"Pert believes that repressed emotions are stored throughout the body (not just in the brain) by means of peptides and that memories are stored in peptide receptor cells. In fact, it’s the emotional release through bodywork that she sees as direct evidence of emotions being repressed and stored in body tissues. Liberating these feelings through touch or other physical methods results in clear internal pathways and a sensation you experience as an energy release."
Therefore, this may be what happened to me during my workout. God knows I've been going through MUCH emotional stress over the past year. So many things going on. Many "negative" things that I just had to somehow deal with and move on. My dad dying. My mom moving in. My daughter's diagnosis with ADHD and dyscalculia (and other teen daughter related issues). A few "failed" romantic relationships. Moving. Stress at work. Turning 40. And also other "positive" events too. Sometimes it felt as though I couldn't take the time to go through the emotion I needed to. I just had to suck it up and keep going. People depended on me. So it had to come out. Better this way than have it turn into some stress provoked illness.
It looks like my workouts will be my therapy!
So I did a Google search and found this: https://experiencelife.com/article/laugh-cry-lift/
It's a rather long article. If you want the gist of it, basically, when we supress emotion during life, we end up storing it in our bodies.
"Pert believes that repressed emotions are stored throughout the body (not just in the brain) by means of peptides and that memories are stored in peptide receptor cells. In fact, it’s the emotional release through bodywork that she sees as direct evidence of emotions being repressed and stored in body tissues. Liberating these feelings through touch or other physical methods results in clear internal pathways and a sensation you experience as an energy release."
Therefore, this may be what happened to me during my workout. God knows I've been going through MUCH emotional stress over the past year. So many things going on. Many "negative" things that I just had to somehow deal with and move on. My dad dying. My mom moving in. My daughter's diagnosis with ADHD and dyscalculia (and other teen daughter related issues). A few "failed" romantic relationships. Moving. Stress at work. Turning 40. And also other "positive" events too. Sometimes it felt as though I couldn't take the time to go through the emotion I needed to. I just had to suck it up and keep going. People depended on me. So it had to come out. Better this way than have it turn into some stress provoked illness.
It looks like my workouts will be my therapy!
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